Beginnings from Endings

September 13, 2016.

I’m prepping for a demo – the Big Day for my startup. I’m preparing to show the leadership team the site and materials the Engineering team’s built in preparation for launching our beta. It’s 5:30 am.

My phone buzzes with a missed text. It’s my dad.

Just wanted to let you know that your grandmother went to the hospital

and I knew

I’d never see my grandma alive again.


September 25, 2016.

First Monday back on the job post-funeral. I’ve received a couple of messages from my boss via Slack while I’ve been in Joliet, so I know there’s an announcement today. I’m not sure what it is, but I’ve got a bad feeling.

My Solo Sense is spot-on. Again.

Our runway is short. We’re restructuring. I’m sorry.

Severance. Agreements. Signatures. Hugs.



October 31, 2016.

Today, I start a job doing something I’ve never done before: part-time stockroom associate for a large clothing retailer. I’ve never worked retail before. I’m still hunting for full-time work, but I’m starting to wonder if I can find a way to take the plunge and go out on my own. For now, I intend to revive the blog and use it as a place to document this adventure.

We may end up homeless; we may end up in a completely different corner of the States (or of the world – who knows?). I may get a dream job tomorrow. Who knows?

I refuse to knuckle under and let my fear prevent me from thriving. I will learn from this. I will grow from this.

I will. I will. I will.


Attrition Game: Indian Grand Prix

Not much to say this week. Let’s get right to it, then….

PLAYERS: (number out/first out if provided)

RESULT: Four out (Button’s still showing in pit, not as STOP or RETIRED) means @dmidwestredneck, @Dger, @racingpoke, and @photomandab win! Congratulations!

Attrition Game: Japan Grand Prix

Fact: most of the time, when I start to write this post, it’s after the start of the race. On evenings like tonight, it’s difficult to focus on writing. I used to spend a good chunk of pre-race working on the Attrition Game, but I’ve found I prefer to spend time running my mouth on Twitter and watching coverage instead.

Both Korea and Japan have really cemented the differences between watching races in the Midwest and watching on the West Coast. In Fulton, Korea and Japan come on around 1 am – meaning there’s more than enough time to get a nap before the race. Living in California, this race starts at 11 pm – still just early enough to make it difficult to sneak in a nap before the race. I’m tired, but as I’m writing this I’m watching Mercedes wheel in one of their cars – with nine laps of 53 elapsed.

How can I be tired? This is shaping up to be a crazy race!

On to the Attrition Game.

PLAYERS: (number out/first out if provided)

RESULT: Sleepy Hansman means short wrap-up. Three retirements means …

… congratulations, @dmidwestredneck, @wcraghead, @photomandab, and @katstaker!